You’re not “zen.” Your Moon is just between malefic aspects

You’re not as calm as you think. That stillness inside you—the one that feels like peace—might not be peace at all. It could be your Moon, caught between malefic aspects. In astrology, the Moon is where your emotions live. It holds your comfort, your fears, your softest parts. When Saturn and Mars press against it, that softness hardens. Not because you’re healed, but because you’ve had to protect yourself.

Saturn doesn’t allow. It restricts, delays, and dulls whatever it touches. Mars does the opposite. It pushes, rushes, and burns. When both of them form harsh aspects to your Moon, your emotional world becomes quiet—not because it’s settled, but because it’s shut down. You stop reacting. You stop feeling things fully. And that emptiness can feel like calm. It can even feel like strength.

But this isn’t real peace. It’s emotional silence, mistaken for serenity. You’re surviving, not resting. There’s a numbness that settles in, a fog that makes it easier to move through your day without breaking’. People might see you as stable. Unshaken. But inside, you feel far away from everything. Even yourself. That’s not balance. That’s disconnection.

Astrology shows us that not all quiet is good. A Moon under malefic pressure doesn’t have room to breathe. It doesn’t cry easily, and it doesn’t laugh freely either. It holds back. It waits. And you learn to live in that waiting. Sometimes, for a long time. But it’s not forever. These aspects shift. The sky moves. And when they pass, you start to feel again—slowly, then all at once.

You may not trust it at first. The return of feeling. It can be overwhelming. But it’s also where healing begins. Not in the silence, but in the slow return of sound. The gentle cracking open of something that’s been sealed too long. So if your calm feels empty, if your stillness feels hollow, look to your Moon. You might not be at peace. You might just be quiet because you had to be. And that’s okay. Now, it’s time to listen. To what’s underneath. To what’s been waiting.